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OUR LIVES BEGIN TO END THE DAY WE BECOME SILENT ABOUT THINGS THAT MATTER.
MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.
MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.
8/7/2015 0 Comments Where Do I Even Start?Like I posted earlier, I have quite a bit to catch up on, but I have no clue where to start... so I guess I'll just dive in and hope for the best. Where should I start..? Oh, I know... I cut a chunk out of my thumb with a freaking potato peeler!! It was traumatizing. Although it wasn't insanely deep, I had a pretty significant little gash in my thumb that caused much pain and inconvenience for over a week. The best part of it all was when a friend of mine said it was a blood sacrifice at the altar of veggies; the price I must pay for a healthier diet. Ha! Price paid! Why am I mangling my tiny thumb? Well, I've been feeling really crappy lately. I get so ill/sick every day! I've done a lot of research and spoken with my nutritionist. My symptoms all point to leaky gut syndrome and it's just as gross as it sounds. This comes from constantly eating crap and not eating enough healthy, healing things to counteract the damage done by the craaap. So there it is! I've actually been eating so poorly for the majority of the last two-three years that I am now sick from it.
I wasn't sure if I should post on it (because why would anyone care about this), but I started this blog as a way to hold myself accountable and to keep me from lying to myself and others about what's really going on in my life. Sooo there it is... I am sick. Because of my body's disrepair, I've been on cleanse for the past few days. I've been drinking green juices and only eating fresh, organic foods. I haven't had processed sugar in several days (minus an accidental cupcake that made me crash harder than I knew possible). I feel so much better and plan to continue the cleanse long term! After so many failed attempts before, I finally feel like I'm actually making progress as far as healing my gut. I know this isn't the most exciting thing ever for YOU, but it is for ME! I'll post cool things I find along the way about health and blah blah blah. (That's me getting tired of talking about that so I'll move on now.) Next, I don't know if I've said anything about the supreme court ruling on gay marriage, so I'll say this... YEEEAAAAAH! I AM SO EXCITED! SUCK. IT. BOBBY. JINDAL. CHANGE IS HAPPENING AND YOU CAN'T STOP IT! I am so excited about this positive step towards change and equality! I hope everyone celebrated that because I know I did. I got several alerts all at once about it from different apps on my phone and I literally just started screaming. Now... not to put a damper on things, but I do want to point out that this isn't the end of the fight. We still have work to do until all couples are afforded the same rights and privileges as same sex couples. Also, we still have a long way to go in regards to the protection of the lgbtq community in schools, the workplace, and everywhere else. Check out the Human Rights Campaign for more information on this. Now, let's get presidential. I took a long quiz that asked me a lot of things I had to google. However, my results were Bernie Sanders 86% and Hillary Clinton (fav) 81%. I already knew I was going to vote democrat, but I guess this narrows the list down a bit. Haha. I'm doing quite a bit of research on where each of these candidates currently stand and where they've previously stood on the issues that matter most to me. I'm learning about their stances on the issues that matter less to me in the process, but I've got until (some time between) January 5th - March 1st of 2016 to decide.
Ummm... but can someone tell me why we still have state representatives voting for the president instead of actual US citizens each having an actual say in who becomes president? I mean... If this is a stupid question, please tell me and then tell me WHY. But until someone can explain to me why having representatives VOTE FOR US makes more sense IN THIS DAY AND AGE I'm going to continue to say it's stupid. It makes me feel as if my vote really doesn't mean all that much. Granted, I'm still going to vote. I can't be stopped in this election. I'm just wondering why we still use a presidential voting system designed by people who used horses as their means of speedy transportation. Next item on the list, I FINISHED MY SUMMER CLASSES! I made a B in both classes, which isn't too shabby. I think two B's is a pretty good start after taking almost six months off. I'm excited to say that I'm taking a full schedule this Fall. My classes are mostly sociology and one French class. I CAN'T WAIT TO LEARN FRENCH! Also, I am working on improving my creaky, old duplex. If anyone in the SBC area has a bookshelf they want to get rid of, text me. Weeeell, I hate to close on that note, but I'm getting super tired and this entry is getting pretty long. I'll get back on later to rant about some more things and talk about others. Thanks for reading!
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I'm spent.I feel so spent right now. I cried a couple times today, not because anyone was mean or they upset me. I cried because a friend and I talked about a couple things lately that've been hard for me. Today was a good day until I cried... since then I've been mostly exhausted.
I know that crying is a normal thing people do and it can sometimes make people feel better. However, it is not a normal thing for me. Crying physically exhausts me. It emotionally exhausts me. If I were to sit around one day and cry off and on all day, I would probably need a full day afterwards to sleep it all off. I've had people say things like "It's not healthy to never cry" or "You need to allow yourself to feel your feelings/process your feelings/etc"... all of that might be true for other people, but crying all the time isn't an option for me. I feel physically ill now because I cried earlier. MY BODY DOES NOT DO WELL AFTER FEELING OVERWHELMED LIKE THAT! Recently I had I friend die. She was originally a teacher of mine, but we grew to be friends and I valued her so very much. When I found out she'd passed away, I wept. However, the crying allowed me to mourn the loss of her life and process that situation. That is one of the rare cases when crying does not wear me out. Crying then actually helped a lot. In normal situations where I have not lost something, I am usually just in a tricky situation or a stressful thing has happened, crying does not help. It stresses me out and adds to my already full plate. This is something I learned about myself today. I had an inkling before, but today really drove that inkling home. It's for sure now. |