Thoughts.
OUR LIVES BEGIN TO END THE DAY WE BECOME SILENT ABOUT THINGS THAT MATTER.
MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.
MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.
8/31/2017 0 Comments It's Nicei just sent a snap to my girlfriends saying I don't think I've liked myself this much in a long time. I'm just sitting here thinking about who I am and who I'm becoming... and I really like what I see. I'm more myself than I've been in a long time. Granted, I still have a long way to go and a lot to work on, but I'm me again. I got so bogged down by bs for years. Trying to be so many things I'm not. But I've been blessed in the last two years with great friends, strong family ties, and situations that have brought me back to feeling like myself and loving myself. I feel strong again. I feel beautiful again. I feel happy again. I'm doing well, y'all. And it feels nice. Everything is going to be okay as long as I keep working hard and being honest with myself and true to my beliefs.
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I'm spent.I feel so spent right now. I cried a couple times today, not because anyone was mean or they upset me. I cried because a friend and I talked about a couple things lately that've been hard for me. Today was a good day until I cried... since then I've been mostly exhausted.
I know that crying is a normal thing people do and it can sometimes make people feel better. However, it is not a normal thing for me. Crying physically exhausts me. It emotionally exhausts me. If I were to sit around one day and cry off and on all day, I would probably need a full day afterwards to sleep it all off. I've had people say things like "It's not healthy to never cry" or "You need to allow yourself to feel your feelings/process your feelings/etc"... all of that might be true for other people, but crying all the time isn't an option for me. I feel physically ill now because I cried earlier. MY BODY DOES NOT DO WELL AFTER FEELING OVERWHELMED LIKE THAT! Recently I had I friend die. She was originally a teacher of mine, but we grew to be friends and I valued her so very much. When I found out she'd passed away, I wept. However, the crying allowed me to mourn the loss of her life and process that situation. That is one of the rare cases when crying does not wear me out. Crying then actually helped a lot. In normal situations where I have not lost something, I am usually just in a tricky situation or a stressful thing has happened, crying does not help. It stresses me out and adds to my already full plate. This is something I learned about myself today. I had an inkling before, but today really drove that inkling home. It's for sure now. |